unit 9.

hello again everyone.

happy tuesday.

haha. its the last day of our second to last week of this term.

i've not really done much these past week.

one of my friends turned 21 this weekend, so we celebrated that. other than that not much, just work and school, and kids.

my husband and i celebrated our 3 year anniversary yesterday. and i started babysitting my nephew in the evenings while his mom is at school until his grandma can pick him up on her way home. so between 330 and 730 M-F I have a 7 month old, 18 month old and 4 year old along with two pets who don't get along wooooo! haha fun times here!

have a great week!

Unit 8.

hello everyone.

again i hope this week finds you all well and in good humor. it was been a very dreary, rainy week here in indiana. i wish this rain would stop playing with us. i wish it would just come a big storm already so we can be done for another 5 years or just bring on the sunshine and rainbows so that i can play outside with my kiddos.

this past weekend has been a great one. my husband, our two kids, our dog, and myself stayed the night at my sisters house on saturday for "family slumber party night". it was a great time. i went over there in the afternoon with the kids and our dog and had dinner. i put the kiddos to bed and then i went to get my husband. then it was the adult time! we had drinks and played wii games all night. it was so much fun, lots of laughter and a much needed stress free night.

sunday, however, i spent the morning throwing up (too much to drink- lol) and resting. thanks to chicken and stars soup and lots of water and juice throughout the day i was feeling much better. : )

i cant believe i am almost done with my 3rd term here at kaplan. it is crazy how fast these terms go by. im very anxious/nervous for clinicals.

i hope everyone has a great week! i, personally, cant wait for the weekend! my hubby and i will be celebrating our dating anniversary- we've been dating for 3 years on the 24th (married for 2 years in august) : )

-april raechelle.

unit 7.

hello everyone. i hope that you are all having an amazing week. also i pray that none of you are in the tennessee or kansas/oklahoma area where all of this horrific weather is hitting and if you are- i am praying hard for you!

its been a confused week weather here in carmel indiana. its went from 85 and sunny to 40 and dreary in a matter of overnight. its been raining, storming, and windy. i really hope the sun comes back and that the rain stops teasing us.

i keep telling everyone i wish this storm would just come and get it over with that way we can get it out of the way for another 5 years.

today is a quiet day in my household. my 3 year old is with her dad for the day; i can't wait for her to get home! i really need to be doing laundry and cleaning but im taking it easy today- i am still having these horrible headaches.

well, i think im going to go check the mail and rest a while before working on my a&p class.

: )

have a great rest of your week everyone.
be safe!

late.

I've had the worse migraine possible for the last week. I went to the doctor who sent me to a TMJ specialist, apparently I have osteoarthritis in my jaw already and am going to have to have a bite splint made. Looking forward to that- only to get rid of these headaches. I was going to post this last night but I didn't wake up from my "nap" until about an hour ago. I slept for 15 hours last night and I still have a headache. : (

I hope that everyone is doing well and that everyone's papers aren't giving them too much of a problem!


Hope everyone has a great day and rest of the week!


-April

busy week.

It has been a very busy week in the Pauley household, but out of everything that has happened this week, my favorite would have to be that my 17 month old daughter started walking!!! I won't post much, but check out the video if you would like!

Welp, halfway through this week already. This week has been CRAZY here in Carmel, Indiana. On top of everything going on in my life with my grandmother and mother being sick, getting back into the swing of things at work, and catching up on homework 4 of the apartments in my building caught on fire Sunday night. I was outside from midnight until 4AM with my husband, our 2 children, and our 2 pets for 4 hours until they told us we weren't going to be allowed back in. I'm so exhausted from lack of sleep and nightmares throughout the week.

Then last night in the middle of the night I woke up at 4AM and have been not feeling too well since.

I'm tired and not feeling too well, but I wanted to write on here to keep up with this. Time to take another nap.

day four.

Oh man, what a day. I am so behind in school- I hate being behind in school. It stresses me out more than anything. I've been trying to stay on top of it, but I'm at the end of my rope. It's 11:05PM and I still haven't even caught up to my other classes work. Well, I wanted to write something on here for this week- so that it would be done, but I'm sorry to my classmates. Please read my other posts- they are more the type of a person that I am.


Thanks,

April

day three. [two weeks later]

hello everyone.

sorry it has taken me so long to get to do this. i have been out of town taking care of my grandmother because my mother has been in the hospital with double pneumonia. she is the one who has been taking care of my grandmother so someone had to be with my grandmother while she was in the hospital.

nothing has really happened these last two weeks except for that. so i dont have much to say today.

please read my previous two posts to get a more better feel of who i am.

: )

day two.

Well, it's not really day two- but in accordance of posts this is day two of a post. Haha. Today I am going to write about something that is something I like everyone to know about me- so that they can understand the reason I am the way I am. 

My life changed as I knew it on Labor Day of 2005. I knew I was pregnant no longer than 10 minutes after my boyfriend at the time and I had gotten finished from having sex. I told him that moment that something didn't feel right that it just was different. He said, "Quit worrying, everything is fine." I brushed it off, but still in the back of my mind I kept thinking something was off. I even went to school the next day to tell my best friend, she said the same thing, so I just let it go. Well days passed and a couple months went on- I had forgot all about it. My friend, who shall remain unnamed, called me and asked me to take a pregnancy test with her for moral support. I, being the great friend, I am said of course. We went and somehow I managed to break my test, but not to the point that it couldn't tell me what it said. She said hers was negative- and this being the first time I had ever taken one started to trash mine, she said "What's yours say?" I said, "Oh- it's just got two lines on it- it's negative." She said, "Um, dear- two lines mean pregnant." After this I proceeded to drive back to CVS to take 4 more pregnancy tests, all saying the same thing. I cried for about 2 hours after this and wondered how the hell I was going to go home and face my sister (who was raising me at the time) and act like nothing had ever happened. I hid it from a lot of people for a long time before finally having to tell my sister. I had always been an A student, this was my senior year. However, I started sleeping ALL THE TIME. At school, at home, and if I could- at work. I was failing every one of my classes. For whatever reason, my school implemented a new rule that if any student had any grades of "D" or lower that they called and spoke with the parents. However, the students were not warned of this new rule. My sister called me from work. She asked me in a very stern voice, "Why did your counselor just call to inform me that you failed every single one of your classes?" I remained quiet. "Is there something you need to tell me?", she asked. I remained quiet. She began to batter me with questions until I said, "I need to go to the doctor." That's all I would say. The next 3 hours of phone calls were the most heated I've ever had. My sister and I had it out like we had never before. Needless to say- I was an emotional wreck the rest of the day. She needed proof. We went to CVS when she got home, we bought another test and she got me some Sweet Tarts. I took the test at home, positive of course, and we had dinner. No more mention of it. On June 10, 2006 (15 days after my high school graduation- which I walked for) Abigail Elise Rasmussen was born. Life was great after that, I had always known I was going to be a mother, I just never knew how much I would love my children. My boyfriend and I moved into an apartment with a family friend of his and he worked while I stayed home. Things were great until I was the only one taking care of the baby and being expected to clean up the whole apartment- even cleaning up after the 35 year old family friend. I was not having it, I moved back home with my sister and things just got worse from there. My boyfriend started hanging out with his friends, not calling, not coming around. I got a job and he told me to make friends with people I worked with, I just took it a little too far and became too good of friends with a guy I worked with who actually gave me any kind of attention. I know, horrible of me, but it happens. I am only human. My boyfriend found out and left me, righteously so. However, he asked me to come over to his parent's house (who he still lives with) so we could talk. I went over there and we proceeded to make up. And as any couple does after a big fight, we 'made up'. That would all be fine and dandy, but during said 'making up' my boyfriend told me he loved me enough to have another child with me- little did I know. Later that night I arrived home and found a message on my facebook, it was from him. It was a message telling me that it was all a mistake and that he didn't mean any of it. I felt disgusted and used. Needless to say, I still slept with him after it because I was convinced he would change. He never did- he ended up getting into a relationship with another girl and didn't tell me until she did. Good times. All the while I found out I was pregnant, again, with his child. He wanted me to have an abortion- which I didn't want to do, but I went ahead and went to the appointment anyways. I was a lot further along than we thought- 19 weeks in fact. In the state of Indiana anything after 16 weeks they don't do, but their Dayton branch did up to 24 weeks. I made the appointment. He never showed to take me, so I said to myself, I'm not doing it. I showed up at his house and I told him what I had decided. Needless to say- we didn't speak much after that. I had decided to do adoption. My sister worked with someone who had been having pregnancy problems and they really wanted a child. I still believe that God put them in my life at that time because he knew it was what the both of us really needed. All the while this was going on, I had just started a relationship with an old friend of mine. About 2 weeks into our relationship I told him what was going on, and to my surprise he was relieved- he thought I was going to tell him I had STD's or something crazy like that. This man stood next to me throughout the whole ordeal and was even there for me when I gave Isabella up. Isabella Raechelle VonBlon was born on October 10, 2007. I have an amazing relationship with the adoptive family and it's completely open. I am free to come visit any time I want, she sends me pictures and in fact on Friday we are having a picnic at the park by my house : ) 

Before this event happened I was an emotional person, I cried a lot. I had to train myself mentally and emotionally not to get attached to this human growing inside of me. Which required me to become more cold than I had ever been before. After this happened my life changed. I am not the person I was before, and I doubt I ever will be again. I am proud of what I have done, I know that I have many hard talks ahead of me and that one day this girl may hate me for a period of time- but I am okay with that because I know I did the best thing for my children at that time with what I had available to me. It's so crazy, because she fits so well with the VonBlon's and just looks like them, I can't imagine it having gone any other way. And I get that sense of pride in knowing that I completed another person's family with a piece of my own. 

I am still with that man, the man who stayed by me throughout the whole process and who is now my husband. My oldest daughter who is going to be 4 in June loves him and even calls him Daddy too. I think my daughters are blessed. My oldest I feel is the most blessed. She has a Momma, a Daddy, and a Daddy Jhordan (her biological father), a Caydee Cakes Sissy (mine and my husband's youngest daughter- she will be 2 in December), a Bella Bug Sissy (Isabella) and lots of aunts and uncles and grandparents that will always be surrounding her. 

My relationship with Abi's father has improved since I have gotten over him and since he has realized that I am actually over him. We talk occasionally, but usually just about Abi- and he sees her maybe once a week, but she's okay with that because she knows that wherever she goes, at whoever's house she stays out that Momma's house is home and that she always has a Daddy no matter where she goes.

I hope you all understand a little bit of how my life has changed over the last few years. I know a lot of people don't agree with what I have done, but I'm okay with that. Everyone is entitled to his or her own opinion. But what I have done has led me to the path I am on- and while yes it could be easier, I am happy with it, and I love this crazy chaotic messed up life because it's my life and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Isabella Raechelle

October 10, 2007

A piece of my family given to complete another person's family.

day one.

Hello, my fellow classmates!! I hope that when you read this that your day finds you good and well. I have never kept an online blog before, so this is something new for me. 


I recently fell down the stairs at my home and hit my back, elbow, and knee. Ever since then they have been really sore. I had been having some pain in my back on my right lower side, which I connected as kidney pain from my kidney stone shifting. I went to the ER and they told me that all the tests came back negative for any urinary system problems. He asked me if I had any recent injuries and I mentioned my fall, he said that from the way it I reacted when he touched it that it was probably a back contusion. So this week has been really slow going, thanks to all the pain medicines.


I guess I'll write a little bit about me that I didn't include in the "Ice Breaker". My name is April Raechelle Pauley. I love my middle name because it is different and unique. I am 22 years old, my birthday is in January. I have been married for two years on August 9th. I have one daughter from a previous relationship, Abigail Elise- 3 years old. My husband and I have one child together who just turned 1 in December. I have my hands full, but I wouldn't have it any other way. My one year old is trying so hard to walk but hasn't yet mastered it. My 3 year old just become fully potty trained, all of her own volition. She refused for so long to do it, that when she just started doing it on her own it was such a shock. She can't wait to go to school, but I think I'll cry- she is my best friend. Haha.


I am a receptionist at my brother in law's internet service providing and web hosting company, but I only work 15-20 hours a week because my husband works 5 days a week in the evening. We chose to work opposite schedules because neither of us make enough to put our kids in childcare and neither one of will do just a babysitter. So its what we have to do to make it work right now. We both are students as well. He is going to IU for Bachelors in Business Management to further himself in his career now. I am going to school to become a medical assistant. Just a stepping stone to the many degrees I plan to obtain in my path to become an RN.


I've known since I was a little girl that I've wanted to be in the medical field, but with what life has thrown me I am straying a bit away and settling for something close to the real deal. 


I love to cook and love to watch the Food Network. I love to be on Facebook and enjoy playing Wii Bowling with my husband. I really love editing pictures, taking pictures, and creating things. I am a huge scrapbooker, but unfortunately haven't been able to do it as much as I would like.


I used to have a different photo as my header and it's a photo a friend of mine created and I just fell in love it. To me, it's a wide open world of thought running through this girl's head. A woman's head has so many random intertwined thoughts that it just seems fitting. I will include it at the end of this blog. I will also include a picture of my husband and I and our kids. 


I will also include a picture of our 6 month old Husky-Terrier mix (Bear) and our 1 year old orange tabby cat (Tigger).


I love the beach and haven't been since I was 17. I miss it so much, I'd love to go back- but money just doesn't allow that right now.


Hope that everyone is having a great day! Please feel free to find and add me on facebook (www.facebook.com/atpauley88)


Peace, Love & Happiness,
**aprilraechelle

Tyler & April

Abi (Abigail Elise)

Caydee (Caydence Rose)

Bear

Tigger